Conflicted
Thank you for being part of the 4Point Fam. I hope you liked the last site I made for The Prelude, because I made another one for Conflicted. I'm only sending it to 4Point Fam members as a way of saying thank you to you guys for supporting me and bumping my music. I scanned pages from my writing notebook so you can get into my head and what I was thinking when I wrote the song, and I put in a link to the video too. Hope you enjoy!
Notebook Pages
The Making of Conflicted
The Lyrics
I’m feelin conflicted
I got some doubt, been feelin some pain, got shit in my system
I got some anger don’t know where to aim, man shut up and listen
I followed my feelings they led me astray, why am I feelin this way?
I wish I felt different, what am I missin I’m feelin conflicted
I got some doubt, got shit in my system been feelin some pain
I hate being stuck in this cage, I think im going insane
Why do I act so damn immature it’s the boy in my brain
And she ask me questions don’t know what to say
I’m feelin conflicted
I got some doubt, got shit in my system been feelin some pain
I been a dick to her really I’m sorry, its my own thing
Multiple women compete for position inside of my brain
And I wanna be with them all, I’m scared that I’ll let her down
Talking to you is like learnin a wholy new language, start with the letters now
You just broke into my heart, congrats you can take a bow
I just wanna take you out before you take me down
Before you take me down
Look
I really do care, don’t know how to show it
I sit in my chair, she tell me I’m stoic
I talk out of turn, I’m thinkin don’t blow it
I’m insecure, I think she know it
I hate the moves that we makin
It’s going nowhere, it’s infuriating, skittish and quakin
She tell me her past, I’m like don’t say it
She wanna get to know me, and all my emotions I tell her okay but beware
I rock the boat and she tell me she sick of the motion it’s all on the table I swear
Yeah
I’m feelin conflicted
I got some doubt, been feelin some pain, got shit in my system
I got some anger don’t know where to aim, man shut up and listen
I followed my feelings they led me astray, why am I feelin this way?
I wish I felt different, what am I missin I’m feelin conflicted
I got some doubt, got shit in my system been feelin some pain
I hate being stuck in this cage, I think im going insane
Why do I act so damn immature it’s the boy in my brain
And she ask me questions don’t know what to say
Like how did I go from
So fuckin excited to terrified, I’m stuck in the doldrums
I do not fit in with all of you guys, this shit is no fun
I’d rather flirt with my cutie online
I told her I’d tell her the truth, no matter what, I’m worried I lied.
I look myself in the mirror, I’m afraid of what’s inside
When it’s all said and done, I hope I can say I tried
They used to laugh at the music like I was a standup guy
Now they get out of their chairs and applaud, I guess I’m a stand up guy
Rappers nowdays some DUI’s
Dumb and uninteresting
Millings of views on your Instagram
But nothing that I’m impressed with
Time is passin and I feel the pressure
Couple of homies got real depression
Hop in the booth and I seal the session
Blow that shit up and unpeel the wreckage
Thought shit was cool that was real deceptive
News is difficult to process
Tryna stay calm and trust in the process
I don’t see a lot of progress
Signs in the neighborhood sayin we’ll make it
It’s been a couple of months since I’ve laid my eyes on a female naked
I’m not gonna make it
Young queen hit me up
Tryina bless me, I cut her off
Cuz I couldn’t take it
Heart beatin in my chest, I tried to play it cool
But I couldn’t fake it
Nah I couldn’t fake it
Look
It’s been a long time since I’ve cared so much about someone before
It’s been a long time since I’ve been so damn scared of someone before
And that’s what I’m lucky for
And what I need, too stupid to know it
Sit at my desk I like writin alone
She call me up and I’m feelin heroic
Thinkin bout her while I stare at my phone
Three years ago and my heart it was broken
Shut down the borders I’m finally home
But I can’t see her cuz we doin the COVID
I guess cupid’s a poet
And I got some doubt, been feelin some pain, got shit in my system
I got some anger don’t know where to aim, man shut up and listen
I followed my feelings they led me astray, why am I feelin this way?
I wish I felt different, what am I missin I’m feelin conflicted
I got some doubt, got shit in my system been feelin some pain
I hate being stuck in this cage, I think im going insane
Why do I act so damn immature it’s the boy in my brain
And she ask me questions don’t know what to say
Don’t know what to say